Communicating isolation and personal struggle: Nagata Kabi’s My Lesbian Experience with loneliness

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  • Marta Fanasca University of Bologna

Abstract

In June 2018, Nagata Kabi achieved unexpected international success by winning the Harvey Award for her essay manga, ‘My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness’ (Sabishisugite Rezu Fūzoku ni Ikimashita Repo). The plot is quite simple: the author, a 28-year-old Japanese woman with no sexual experience and a history of mental health issues, decides to hire a female escort to have sex for the very first time.

Despite the seemingly straightforward plot, this manga is not about sex. The original title, which translates to ‘Report: I was too lonely, so I went to a lesbian escort service,’ reflects the main theme of Nagata’s struggle with loneliness and her continuous search for belonging. Sex with a sex worker serves as a tool for Nagata to explore her physical and mental status, her vulnerabilities, and to express her personal development.

Nagata is an outcast for the standards of the Japanese society: despite being an adult, she is not employed full-time, and her aspiration to pursue a career in the manga world concerns her parents. Additionally, her homosexuality further marginalizes her. Nagata’s deviation from the societal norms is underscored by her limited sexual knowledge, acquired solely from reading manga. Initially, Nagata’s struggle appears to revolve around meeting parental expectations and becoming a shakaijin, or a fully functioning member of Japanese society. However, it ultimately evolves into a journey of learning to relate to others, demonstrating how sex (and manga) can serve as a means of communication among individuals.

This article examines how Nagata, through her manga, portrays the communication challenges faced by individuals who do not fit neatly into established categories, particularly those who experience a life development following a ‘queer temporality,’ in contrast to heteronormative life trajectories. Ultimately, it demonstrates how manga can serve as a tool to alleviate isolation for individuals who do not conform to the established norms of Japanese society.

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Author Biography

Marta Fanasca, University of Bologna

Marta Fanasca earned a Ph.D. in Japanese Studies at The University of Manchester and completed a postdoc at The Higher School of Economics in Saint Petersburg. She is currently a Marie Curie Global Fellow affiliated with the University of Bologna, Hosei University and KU Leuven. Her research interests cover gender studies, the commodification of intimacy, and contemporary Japanese pop culture. Her monograph Female Masculinity and the Business of Emotions in Tokyo was published in 2023 by Routledge.

Marta can be contacted at: marta.fanasca@unibo.it

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Published

2025-01-20

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Vol. 28 No. 2 (2024): Kervan 28/2

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